Saturday, April 20, 2013

Another memories to embrace

Well here i am, again.
This time not to share opinion, complaining nor condemning.
So, let me begin with my story. Here what had happened:
This evening, when i came back from my fieldwork, i on my lappy, and straight away update any information in my facebook.
And i found a new update about my club's blog.
I read..and read..and smile...
I read...and read..and read..and the sky turns cloudy, as its like going to rain..
I read..and read...and read...and im crying,
I close my eyes, and one by one image start playing in my mind like a symphony.
All of the views, all of the moments, all of the tears, all of the laughter.
I put my hand on my chest, press it hard, cause it much.
I feel the pain, deep inside.
I feel touched.
I feel...
Hurm, you dont understand it. Well you wont.
So here i am, telling you my dear what i feel. 
Another loser was born, she didnt realise it. Well thats me, i failed to hold my precious thing, to protect it, to defend it, to preserve it. I failed to keep the trust that have been given. 
To think about it, im so sad! 

What left is just a memory, moments that we used to cherish....together.
And so, you wanna let it just be a piece of memory? And will become just another bed time story for your children? 

This is the song that i want to dedicate to them, to my family, to my club. Listen to it while you read this..

Flying without wings

Flying without wings.

"Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be"

It might be the strangest places to start with. But once you in, you will in, and you will truly find  the something that you want! complete you!

"Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings"

Now, tell me, who dare to deny the joy it brings! They are special!

"Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry"

I still remember this is the first time i join them,moment that i cried alot, and feel wanna give up with them, but then,they make me believe that i belong here. And at the end we all together make laugh more than cry.
"You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much it means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings"

Friendship-they can describe it better than i do. Theres a saying, i have no one here except my thesis,my awek,and all of you!
So, impossible as it may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
‘Cause who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

yeah,even we've been driven out from the room, with him, we have the strength to still be together, fight for every dream. Dont ever give up! Ever!

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
‘Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends

Here start my life, my glory day!
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

We dont chase the victory. We are born the be a winner, inside of our very soul, we always a winner, always win to catch the heart of each other, to stay and work hard together. To always get up when we fall, and be there whenever ones need someone to interlock.
So tell me, will this be just a piece of story that we will tell others later?
Yeah..right,nothing can we do.
We begin it with passion and enthusiasm,and we end it with memories.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

A vow. A promises that should not be broke.

I will never quit. I persevere and thrive on adversity. My Nation expects me to be physically harder and mentally stronger than my enemies. If knocked down, I will get back up, every time. I will draw on every remaining ounce of strength to protect my teammates and to accomplish the mission. I am never out of the fight. Now this is exactly what i do to you- I will draw on every remaining ounce of strength to protect NWI and to make her happy!

My loyalty to you beyond reproach. I humbly serve as a guardian you, always ready to defend when are unable to defend yourselves. I do not advertise the nature of my work, nor seek recognition for my actions. I voluntarily accept the inherent hazards of caring for you, placing the welfare and security of you before my own.

I serve with honor. The ability to control my emotions and my actions, regardless of circumstance, sets me apart from other men. Uncompromising integrity is my standard. My character and honor are steadfast. My word is my bond.

You are my symbol of honor and heritage. Bestowed upon me by you and it embodies the trust that I have sworn to keep. I accept the responsibility to take care of as way of life.It is a privilege that I must earn every day.

I will not disappoint you ever again!

Sunday, April 14, 2013


It's been a long time since i wrote on this blog. 
I'm too lazy to write.
I'm too lazy to think.
But my life is getting better and everyday was a good and perfect.
Things start to happen more than what i expected.
Well, sister and brother, the world is not just full of failure, and hatred.
When you bump into them, don't give up, it's just another obstacles that you need to endure and pass through along the way. And, if you get up, and put more effort, strive, and move on, you gonna find something more than success and love. You'll rise and shine! 
Have a nice day and stay positive. 
Believe in yourself. Somewhere deep inside, we got potential. Lets start digging in and find it back! 

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Kura2 Malas

Rumput dah makin panjang. Lalang pun dah tumbuh meliar. Semak samun dah blog ni tidak berpenghuni.
Lately banyak merenung, termenung dan segala nung lah. Banyak pulak idea yang berlegar-legar di kepala. Simpan. Kemudian masuk dalam hati kata balik nanti aku nak taip. Tapi lepas sampai depan laptop, atas katil busuk ni, tangan jadi malas. Makanya hanya tengok movie sampai tengah malam dan terus tido dan kemudian bangun tido gosok gigi, sarapan, dan sambung lagi tengok movie sampai malam dan begitulah hari-hari yang membosankan selama sebulan membazir di UKM ni. Sekian.

Bukan tak ada kerja. Ada lab. Tapi disebabkan ada masalah teknikal,jadilah aku penganggur terhormat dengan hidup yang super bosan di UKM ni.

So malam ni aku tak adalah nak taip mende. Just nak bagi start engine blog ni. Lagi pulak dah nak start sem. Mesti lagi sibuk dan mesti lagi malas lah aku nak menaip di blog ini.


Banyak benda aku nak taip sebenarnya. Banyak. Sampai aku tak tahu nak taip mana satu dulu. Dan aku rasa ada story baru yang aku nak taip. Ish. Malas. Malas. Malas tau tak. Malas nak fikir. Malas nak taip. Malas nak mandi. Malas nak keluar bilik. Malas nak buat semua benda. Tak tahulah kenapa tahap kemalasan ni semakin memuncak-muncak. Patutnya dapat result yang baik jadi makin bagus, motivate diri untuk jadi better. 

Argh..the thing is, hurm..aku rasa faktor aku jadi macam ni sebab perasaan ni la.
Aku rasa something.
Aku rasa lack something.
Ada benda yang tak kena.
Ada benda yang aku kena pergi settlekan segera.

Not again!

Ok. dah jauh merepek. tak apa. bukan orang kesah aku merepek sorang2. 

Ok lah. Selamat  Menghadapi Cabaran Akhir Sem Cik NWI. 

Monday, January 28, 2013

Permulaan yang baik

Semalam, aku lihat dia di situ. Diam. Sekilas aku memandangnya seakan dia melambai ke arah ku sambil tersenyum. Aku tidak mampu membalas senyumannya. Perit. Dada ini terasa perit. Langkahan aku semakin perlahan. Aku takut untuk semakin mendekatinya. Semakin aku dekat bererti semakin aku perlu melepaskannya.

Hari ini, aku masih lihat dia di situ. Di ruang itu. Di tempat yang sama. Menanti aku. Tersenyum padaku. Kali ini aku betul-betul yakin senyuman itu memang untukku. Aku membalas senyumannya. Aku berjalan dan berjalan sehingga melepasi dia di situ. Aku tidak berhenti. Aku tidak juga menoleh ke arahnya meski aku sudah jauh ke hadapan. Sudah tiba masanya. 

Mungkin hari-hari mendatang aku akan lihat dia lagi di situ. Mungkin. Aku akan balas senyumannya. Dengan ikhlas. Kerana aku sudah lama berjalan ke depan. Aku sudah lama ke depan. Aku sudah mula mencari arah laluan yang patut aku tuju. Tahniah! 

le me looking forward to the future~