Wonderful Colors of Life

Hi yall! Lama sudah tidak menaip. Hal ini kerana ke-busy-an yang melampau-lampau. Final year, thesis, proposal, assignment, presentation. Pretty damn tough!

Well, just wanna say, whenever i visit my own blog, i feel so so so so so damn happy and cheerful. Not because of the entry, not because of nobody there to leave a comment, not even because  im one of the 'forever alone' ranger. Haha. Its because of the colour of my blog.

Cheerful, colourful. Really release my stress. And whenever i look at it, i smile to the fullest.

So it's just true that colors fill your life. Try it out.

While looking at those colors of the background, i browse at some of old pictures of my family. Yeah, it totally grew a sense of 'what life is' 'how's my life have gone through'. All the colors relate to the pictures. Full of happiness, laughter, joke, funny things! And that make me feel wanna adore my own life history, and appreciate all of those memories till last.

When i think back of what i've done before, to myself, to my family, to my friends, to my teachers, to my beloved mom, to my arwah bapak, to my love.... i think of several things ; there's things that i feel like i wanna go back at that time to repair, there's things that i feel like im totally glad of doing that, there's things that i feel like i wanna stay longer for that moment and wish time stop by for a while, there's things i feel like i wanna do that again and again till i feel satisfied!

Yeah, when scrolling back to your life story, things that you'll remember most is most probably the sweetest thing ever and you gonna miss it. So that's why we took a picture of that moment to cherish in the future. Finally i realize it. How beautiful of my life. Struggle to live with my loves around. Quarreling, fighting, shouting, cursing, crying, hugging, celebrating.... We've gone through it. All of it.

I've seen them grown up so fast infront of my eyes. And i'm glad of it. They have grown up. And somedays, our lives will no longer be like this, we might have our own destination, own life, own family, own business to take care of. For now, let it just be, let us appreciate our life, our bond, our relationship to the fullest and fill it with bright, shine, beautiful colors!!!

abah and mama.

mama with 7th bro.

6th bro, mama and 2nd bro.

mom at the back, from left, 5th child, 3rd, 4th, 6th, and up there is the last, 7th.

from left, 3rd, 7th, 4th, 2nd sis/bro~

from left, 5th, 7th, 4th, 6th.

from left, 6th and 3rd.

7th bro and 3rd bro.

7th bro.

From left, 7th and 6th bro.

3rd bro.

See them? See their smiles? Now lets see how they look like today.... 

3rd and 7th bro.

3rd and 6th bro.

From left, 2nd, 5th, mama, 3rd, 4th sis/bro.

infront, 4th, followed by 7th, 2nd, 5th, 6th bro/sis.

white tudung 4th, at the back is the 6th, middle abah, black tudung 5th sis.

From left, 5th and 4th sis.

From left, 4th, 2nd, 5th sis.

This hantu gigi is my 7th bro.

Ugly smile by 7th bro! haha.

2nd sis and 7th bro.

hantu durian- 6th bro.

4th sis.

So far, those were pictures that i can share here. Actually theres a lot of pictures, pic of how we celebrate our family members birthday without a cake due to economic crisis but then we manage to just celebrate, wishing etc, and pictures of present that we prepared for mom or for sis/bro.

You know what, what i like the most about them, they never ever complain or sigh when there's alot of thing that we didn't get like other childs got, or things that is not enough for all of us, or nothing to be eat for that week, no money to buy birthday cake or present. Not a matter. Not an issue. We strive the best to be together.

I still remember how 6 of us manage to ikat perut seminggu to collect pocket money given from mom to buy her a birthday present. I think that was really an amazing teamwork. We go buy present, not enough money to buy a beautiful wrapper, we just wrap it with surat khabar. But later on, enjoy, and happy and cheer out loud when celebrate the super simple birthday and together clap hand, sing the birthday song! How wonderful and how i wish i can show you those pictures and video, but then i lost all of it. Damn this virus! It ate all my beautiful pictures!

Till now, itu sajalah yg boleh dikongsi. What i'm gonna say here. I'm just glad, to be with them, to know them, and to live with them. The most important thing is, i'm not wasting time anymore to not to realize how important they are in my life, still get the chance to share things with them! Hope to see any more change through us. =)